You found the first stop! I wanted to do this because I've never been able to remember all the things I wanted to say to you in person, or even over the phone. It always felt strange to be your girlfriend, because I never thought anyone would love me like you do. I was never one to try dating, I never tried to make many friends, because I never felt like I deserved that kind of love. Even as a little kid I felt like the backup child, the one that my parents wanted so they could have a normal kid to compare my brother to. They would say that it was so nice that I was just ADHD because my brother had someone to relate to, and that became my identity. The good kid. The one they didn't worry about, and who didn't bother her parents with her needs and wants. The one who never had a relationship with boys because if that went sour, then it would be something she needed help with, so it was better not to try because what if I upset them? What if I dated someone and he wasn't nice, and I needed advice? Well, the advice would probably be "Shouldn't have gotten involved in the first place". I could follow that advice before I got it, and I did.

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